new music

First of all -- I made another post! This is progress! Even if it's just about music! Progress! 

Okay, now onto the real reason this post exists:

Every now and then, I stumble upon some glorious artist that I feel needs to be shared with the part of the world that is particularly uncultured about said artist. That being said, this month's favorites are

Lily & Madeleine

If you like Bon Iver, Fleet Foxes, The Staves, First Aid Kit, and the like, then this duo is totally for you. Their music is overall relaxing, mood lifting, and therapeutic in a way. I've been listening to "Fumes" (seriously, go listen to it. Right now. Here, I'll make it easy for you: click this. right now.)

Some other favorites by them include "Lost Upon the Sea", "Paradise", "Things I'll Later Lose".

Now go listen to them if you haven't already!
Go go go!

january musings

as always, it takes me a lifetime to update anything on this blog! i'm just not as committed to it as i should be, but that's always subject to change!

i'm currently enjoying the not-so pleasant view of my not-so tidy room, but like i stated above, that is subject to change. and it is subject to change pretty often, it seems. in addition to the lovely room i'm typing this in, i'm also accompanied by a warm cup of minty tea + brown sugar added in, as well as my half eaten milano. i'm back into milanos again, i don't know how i ever went without them! 

well, school started up again yesterday and i was thrown into the full swing of it as well as work and so my motivation for both of those things is slowly but surely returning. sooner or later these gears will stop rusting and be running smoothly. 

some pretty life-changing things have happened:
1. i chopped off all of my hair! okay, not all of it. but enough to shock people who knew me with my long, multi-colored, dead hair. it was a pretty dramatic cut and surprisingly, i've never stopped loving it. i do find myself getting a little bored with the dull brown + black so i'll have to fix that, and soon. my impulsiveness is completely apparent when it comes to my hair. one day it's black, two hours later, it's red. what can you do?
TL;DR: i cut off enough hair to shock everyone. 
2. i added a second dresser to my room! yes, i do own that many clothes! it's an awful habit of mine, buying things that probably have nothing to match with what i already own, so i go out of my way to purchase yet another thing to go with the one thing that it'll pair well with. that, and i hoard clothes. oops! i have to start giving away some clothes i no longer wear, like those outdated pair of jeans from 7th grade that i thought were so cool at the time. sometimes they are cool, but most of the time they look unclassy and really add to the "10th grade" look i already adorn, thanks to genetics and such.
TL;DR: i bought a new dresser because i own too many things!
3. i'm drinking tea again. doesn't really sound like much of a life change, in all honesty, but the habit of me even drinking something remotely hydrating/therapeutic is something you don't come by often! i'm the worst at remembering to stay hydrated, or to eat another meal because i'm hungry. i got used to the "you can starve for three hours, it will not kill you", but then it does end up killing me and i end up eating everything in sight. this tea is damn delicious. so, so good. so good i had to swear.
TL;DR: drink freaking tea and you'll know how i feel 

every now and then i remember to come to this website and post some random blabberings about positively nothing and absolutely everything. whoever is reading my scattered posts, thank you! sorry i'm not good at this, but i appreciate you taking the time to scroll through my not-so exciting life. and much to your surprise, i'm very cliche and moderately uninteresting. 

but then again, doesn't that make me less-than moderately interesting, too? 

Some random scribbling from my notebook

remember:

1. do you laundry so you don't recycle clothes / throw out clothes you no longer wear. 
2. light a candle before bed and when you wake up to improve your mood and the smell of your room
3. brush your hair / hair mask !!! your hair is dying. hydrate it! 
4. q-tips are a thing. use them. 
5. read a book at least once a day 
6. pray - however you need to that day -- sing, dance, cry, sleep
7. tell people how much you love them
8. hang pictures on your wall
9. keep your study area clean to avoid getting anxious 
10. keep your car clean for the same effect
11. have incentives 
12. maintain your grades
13. maintain your health
14. be aware of your spending habits
15. budget often - you won't regret it 
16. breathe
17. give often
18. you don't NEED that until you're in the sore. don't go in the store 
19. cut your hair every once in a while
20. thank your parents
21. eat three meals a day!!!! !!!!
22. vitamins!!!
23. other medication if needed !!!
24. exercise / yoga / walk
25. fiber
26. green!!!
27. fruit!!!!
28. water!!!

november feelies

Whenever I thought about November, I always thought about crisp air, leaves turning different colors, having the fireplace on at all hours of the day, being able to snuggle into my comfy clothes and sit in a corner with some hot chocolate and a blanket... but no, I live in Southern California, where my air is sometimes crisp, but only for a couple of hours because that blazing sun comes pouring in at 10 AM, and suddenly the wind dies down and you can spot heat waves on cars from miles away; the leaves are still changing but the grass is fading and insects are now scouring homes for shade in the middle of November, no less. 

Moving onto more exciting things to talk about other than the weather...

Finals are coming up! Finals are sort of exciting because they always mark a stepping stone, a time where everyone stresses together and when it's over you sleep in and always feel like even that is a waste of time. But it will be hard earned, the sleeping in part. I'm looking forward to next semester because I'm taking on 14 units-- my biggest semester yet! I have to meet up with a counselor soon so they can provide some insight as to how much farther I have left until I can finalllllly transfer! I'll also be working, but I'm looking forward to it.

Thanksgiving has passed and now Christmas is here... which means I now have reason to bring out the Christmas piano books and sing "It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas" without receiving dirty looks from people. Oh yeah, the sun is still out. I wonder if it'll ever go away...

CHRISTMAS IS UPON US

1 month

It's been exactly a month since I last posted! That's probably better than most times I've tried to keep up with this silly 'ol thing. 

WELL.

Exciting things have happened! School started, it's going great, I'm procrastinating as usual and now I've managed to have two tests built up for the week, a midterm due, a shortage of funds for doing things I'd normally do thanks to being sick and not working, and just a plethora of "woe is me" things. 

I'm currently sitting at my desk, which isn't clean in the least... I put this bright yellow table runner/cloth on top of it in hopes of providing me with some inspiration to keep this area more neat. Clearly, that doesn't work. My mind works like this: I'll notice a mess, I won't acknowledge it for weeks at a time. I'll finally notice it and get disgusted. I'll write about cleaning it, and then follow through with cleaning. And then it will get messy. And the cycle repeats! It's terrible. I'm going to be 20 in FOUR days! That's ridiculous. I'm ridiculous.

I'm also very hungry. Ridiculous and hungry. 

Moving onto more interesting things...

Last night I was in Santa Ana with my best friend to watch one of my favorite bands! It was a great night spent with awesome people and I got to meet the singer and hang out for a little bit. I even got a shirt! I'll post a picture soon. I really should be cleaning. I really just wanted to post about what's happening tomorrow. I'm going to Universal Studio's Halloween Horror Night and let me just tell you one thing about me: I HATE HORROR. My parents are telling me to go and to enjoy myself but I don't know if I can! I mean, bloody clowns, incessant screams all throughout the park, adrenaline rushes, I don't know if I'm ready for it. I'm terrified. But I'll do my best to make the most of it, I suppose. I just hate horror. Maybe I'll make a follow-up post after tomorrow... It goes until 2 AM and that ...does not sound promising. I'm currently frowning. 

Here's to hoping it doesn't traumatize me! 

Getting farther

If anyone's been around me in the past month or so, they'd know that I'm definitely unwell. Immune system-wise. I contracted some strange bug that started me off with laryngitis, before evolving into what I think is bronchitis.
I have all the symptoms for bronchitis but I haven't actually gone to get a diagnosis from a doctor. I've gone to two doctors but to be honest, only one really helped. But ever since then, I haven't gone back since. Yes, she's a good doctor. But I had a very uncomfortable experience and I would much rather not go back and have to endure that again.
I'm on three prescription meds, and honestly nothing has really changed. I've gotten worse, and she diagnosed me with "post-nasal drapes". Whatever that means. I have the internet, I can totally look it up.

But bottom line is that I'm sick. Grossly sick.

And I'm so frustrated because I want to get better (Bleachers, yeah!) and it's been an uphill battle since day 1.

Maybe this is just the beginning. I hope not.

there was once something interesting, then I deemed it "not interesting" a few months later.

please enjoy this rather wonderful picture that I have created in this post's place




: )